31 July 2015

Single Life

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Being single is actually great. I know you get lonely sometimes and jealous of couples, but it can be better than a relationship, trust me. 

The single life is the great life. No worries. Just happiness and freedom. You can do whatever you want to do. No one is stopping you from doing what you want to do. No one is stopping your from pursuing your dreams. You can go where you want and do what you want. How great is that? You don’t have to worry about anyone but yourself. You do everything for yourself. And your happiness is yours and only yours and doesn’t rely on anyone else. 

As much as girls love makeup, it is a bit annoying to look good every single day, isn’t it? When you have no one to impress, you don’t have to spend so much time looking good for anyone, but yourself. And I’m sure you don’t need makeup to make yourself happy. It’s so stressful to wing your eyeliner and put eyelashes on and conceal your dark spots. 

Well, when you’re single, you don’t really have to worry about that! Ditch the skirt. Ditch the dress. Ditch the heels. We all know that looking nice comes with a few downsides, such as pain and annoyance. I hate having to pull my skirt down. Or wear heels because those may be super cute, but they’re also super uncomfortable. 

When single, you don’t have to dress like a model. You can wear sweatpants and boots or sneakers. You can be super comfortable. You don’t have to endure the pain and stress of looking good. 
Personally, I think that sweatpants are cute too. 

Let’s be honest: relationships are expensive. Not only are you paying for yourself, but you are also paying for another person. When you’re single, you save so much money because you are only spending for yourself. Go treat yourself for a nice meal. Go buy those shoes you’ve been eyeing. You have more money now! And it’s all earned by you, for you. 

And of course, the best part about being single is being able to go out with your girls. Go out and shop. Go out and eat. Go out to the club and party. Go have fun! You don’t have to worry about not being home on time. You don’t have to worry about seeing a cute guy and forcing yourself to not talk to him. You can do whatever you want. A girls’ night is always super fun. Plus, when you’re with your girls, you guys can talk about anything. Anything at all. Because they will understand where you’re coming from. No one knows you better than your girl friends. Like Cindy Lauper said, “Girls just want to have fun!” so go out and have fun!

Have fun single ladies,



06 July 2015

My Lonely Life.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Midnight. Again. I am back to the "Sorrowful Yean". Pathetic. I thought I have change. Masih sama. Sama macam "Yean" time study di UiTM dulu.

Lebih suka sendiri. Always alone. Tidak suka join majlis keramaian, tidak suka bergaul, tidak suka bercakap, tidak suka keadaan yang melibatkan ramai orang, dalam kelas selalu duduk belakang and sendiri. But my Batch, even dorang tidak tahu cerita kenapa saya begitu, they never leave me alone. Bila saya sendiri, dorang mesti kasi teman duduk belakang. Dorang tidak kasih benar saya duduk sendiri. And I have learned, betapa sunyinya kalau sendiri. Rindu.

But now, I am back to that life again. Even start masa masuk KSKB. Bersyukur, masa tu di temukan dengan Gegurl, Soneea and Verra. If not memang lone ranger. Even terlampau banyak ups and down yang kami lalui at least kau ada kawan bercakap, kawan meluah perasaan, kawan ketawa.

Tapi bila masuk dunia pekerjaan ney betul- betul menduga jiwa dan raga saya. Pergi kerja, balik kerja, sendiri. Dalam bilik diam-diam macam orang gila. Kadang-kadang balik kerja mandi, makan, terus tido. Kadang-kadang makan pun tidak, terus tido. Sebab tidak tahu maw buat apa. Handphone? Makin lama makin bosan sama Facebook. Insta pun jarang update. Wassap pun balas if itu mama or family or Bestfriend or hal kerja.  Wechat? Jangan cakap laaa. Nasib ada Twitter. Boleh jua merepek. Hari rehat hanya dihabiskan dengan tido, sama macam hari ney. Lihatlah betapa sunyi dan bosannya kehidupan saya.

Selesai suda merepek hari ney. Semoga saya kuat menempuhi hidup yang sunyi. Lonely. Alone. Whatever.

That lonely girl,



04 July 2015

This too shall pass.


You are going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you have been in this place before. You have been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you have survived.

Breathe and know that you can survive this too. These feelings can not break you. They are painful and debilitating but you can sit with them and eventually, they will pass. Maybe not immediately but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do you will look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience.

I know it feels unbearable right now but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass.

I know it will pass.

This girl,



One Sided Love.

It seems that you already have someone that you could call as your own now.

I know I am but just an ordinary girl and I know I am but just a page into your life while I have written you a whole book of countless odes and sonnets. You are the center of my literary atmosphere and my world seems to revolve around you.

You are the constant tingling of my toes, the butterflies in my tummy and the frequent yearning that I've always longed for. I wish  you knew. I wish I was not late to tell you this. I wish I could change your mind but I guess you are happy now and I can not undone the things that are already fixed. 

I hope she watches your favorite movies, sing to you your favorite songs and adores your poetries more than herself. I hope she always reminds you of the thing you tend to forget or wish you safety whenever you drive. I hope she listens to your stories about your day and work. I hope she writes verses about your eyes, your voice, your laughter like I always do. I hope she'd tell you she loves you as many times that I should have told you I do.

I hope you happy with her, B,C.

This pity girl,



Tabung :)