Being forgotten..

Assalamualaikum wbt.

I know this feeling is not right. Bercampur baur. Risau perasaan ney akan memudaratkan lagi keadaan. Sesuatu yang memang tidak boleh di jangka. Sakitnya Allah swt seja yang tahu. Saya sendiri tidak tahu di mana silapnya, apa penyebabnya. Pelbagai persoalan timbul. Persoalan yang tak sepatutnya pun timbul.

Perasaan ini sepatutnya tidak perlu ada sebenarnya. I am wasting my time. Wasting all these tears for nothing sebab ia lansung di hargai. Pengorbanan yang sebenarnya tidak sekalipun dihargai, malah di pandang hina. Kehadiran yang seikhlas hati, di ambil kesempatan. Kesempatan untuk membela diri sendiri. Ya, mengambil kesempatan dalam kesempitan. Untuk kesenangan diri sendiri.

Being forgotten by Noel

The day we first broke up.
I don't know what goodbye was.
Only after a few days have passed.
Not getting a call from you felt so awkward.
The empty text message inbox, a day without you.

Were we ever in love?
The images of you in the many places.
At some point are being forgotten.
The fact that you'll be even more forgotten as time goes by.
That hurts even more, it just doesn't feel good.

I guess it's really over now.
It finally feels real.
Everything that we used to love is now being erased.
The times when we were always together.
The days i was happy by looking at you.
The night i looked for you, asking you to come back.
Saying that i missed you.
Hiding and crying all night, all of that.
And the fact that we're getting farther apart.
That hurts more for me.

As i was organizing things one by one.
I suddenly thought of this.
There were so many things i am sorry for.
I wasn't good enough so i couldn't express myself.
I know you were disappointed with me back then.

I guess it's really over now.
It finally feels real.
Everything that we used to love is now being erased.
The times when we were always together.
The days i was happy by looking at you.
The night i looked for you, asking you to come back.
Saying that i missed you.
Hiding and crying all night, all of that.
And the fact that we're getting farther apart.
That hurts more for me.

On a day when it really hurt a lot, i really missed you.
I was so young, i hated you so much.
So i hoped you would suffer too.
I hoped you would hurt without me too.

Your phone number that's still clearly in my head.
The way you talked that always changed.
Your body that was so warm.
All the things that i miss are being forgotten.
That is what hurts.

This song. Yes this song. Sangat sesuai. Tapi jangan hanya lihat pada sudut percintaan antara sepasang kekasih sahaja. Lihatlah jua dari sudut yang lain. Pasti ada yang faham. Perasaan saya ketika ini. Kalau lah ada.

With Love,

-yean-

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Let It Go

Assalamualaikum wbt..

" Mistakes teach you important lessons, Everytime you encounter one, you’ve a step closer to your goal "

Semestinya, semua orang ada masa silam. Tak kisahlah sama ada kita suka atau benci akan zaman itu. Hakikatnya itulah yang membuatkan kita lebih matang dan sedar akan tanggungjawab kita sebagai anak, abang atau kakak, or whatever it is. Kisah silam tak semestinya pahit, manisnya pasti ada cuma lambat untuk kita sedari.

" Don’t let a bad day make you feel like you have a bad life "

Kerinduan takkan pernah lari dari kita. Walaupun rindu itu menyakitkan. Tak kisah la rindu pada teman, rindu pada yang dicintai atau rindu pada diri sendiri. Segalanya akan berubah. Cepat atau lambat, akan pasti ada perubahannya. Antara sedar ataupun tidak.

" Sometimes it’s not the person you miss. It’s the feeling you had when you were with him/her "

Kesilapan takkan pernah lari dari manusia. Tiada yang sempurna. Tapi jangan jadikan itu sebagai alasan untuk melakukan kesilapan yang sama berulang kali kerana itu di kira sebagai pilihan. Pilihan yang pasti meninggalkan penyesalan.

"Life’s challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they are supposed to help you discover who you really are "

With love,

-yean-

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Cuti Raya 2014

Alhamdullillah Syawal kini menjelang tiba.. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, maaf zahir dan batin.. Semoga kita bertemu dengan bulan Ramadhan lagi insyaAllah..
Alhamdullillah raya kali ney macam-macam perkara yang tak disangka berlaku jua.. Dapat bertemu semula dengan kawan-kawan dari kecik and kawan-kawan sekolah menengah.. Walaupun semua buzy dengan karier mereka sendiri tapi dengan izin-Nya dapat jua kami bertemu walaupun tak lama.. Rindu sangat.. Terutama sekali bila kenangan-kenangan manis masa zaman persekolahan dulu diungkit.. Zaman-zaman kenakalan yang kadang-kadang membuat kami sedar dengan kesilapan yang tak sepatutnya kami lakukan.. Kesilapan yang akhirnya disesali..
Kalau dulu kami selalu bersembang lebih kepada cerita-cerita remaja, si anu cari pasal sama sya kelmarin, si anu tidak puas hati dengan saya, si anu kena kacau mari kita p serang, si anu minta puji owh malas sya tengok, si anu begini si anu begitu.. Tapi sekarang semua saling bertanya khabar, rindu kamurang, bila kau maw kahwin, kau kerja apa sudah etc.. Kami yang sekarang sangat beza dengan 'KAMI' yang dulu.. Nampak MATANG :) Mungkin sebab semua makin dewasa.. Makin pandai fikir sendiri.. Biasalah, orang cakap pengalaman mengajar kita untuk lebih dewasa :)

CHILDHOOD BESTFRIENDS!!

SECONDARY SCHOOL FRIENDS!!

 

 Semoga jodoh persahabatan kami berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat, hingga ke Jannah.. InsyaAllah... Doakan kejayaan dan kebahagian kami yaa :)

Forever With Love,

-yean-

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