Crying to sleep.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

People always say that "Crying yourself to sleep has got to be the worst thing ever".

That is an obvious statement but for me it is different thinking about crying yourself to sleep than when it actually happen to yourself.

Your breathing ends up almost impossible. The fear of waking anyone else in the house with loud sobs or gasping for air. You whole body tenses up.

You can trying cuddling up with your pillow, stuffed animal or anything, but what does that help with? You still trembling. If anything, it makes it worse.

You cry harder, louder. Only trying to be quiet. You gasp gasp for air while letting out thousand of tears. Your body shuts down. Your eyes keep streaming. Your mind goes blank.

Maybe you fall into a dream, a nightmare, but you are fast asleep. When you wake yup, you can not remember exactly how you fell asleep, but you know your crying was unbearable.

Your eyes still hurt from all the fluids leaving them. You can not help but to curl into a ball and think. Try to remember how it all happened. You do not even want to do anything else.

You just sit in your bed, trying your hardest to get up and live the day like last night did not happen. But you can not help but to think,

"Is that how tonight is going to go, too?"

#cp

Girl who cry now,

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