Being forgotten..

Assalamualaikum wbt.

I know this feeling is not right. Bercampur baur. Risau perasaan ney akan memudaratkan lagi keadaan. Sesuatu yang memang tidak boleh di jangka. Sakitnya Allah swt seja yang tahu. Saya sendiri tidak tahu di mana silapnya, apa penyebabnya. Pelbagai persoalan timbul. Persoalan yang tak sepatutnya pun timbul.

Perasaan ini sepatutnya tidak perlu ada sebenarnya. I am wasting my time. Wasting all these tears for nothing sebab ia lansung di hargai. Pengorbanan yang sebenarnya tidak sekalipun dihargai, malah di pandang hina. Kehadiran yang seikhlas hati, di ambil kesempatan. Kesempatan untuk membela diri sendiri. Ya, mengambil kesempatan dalam kesempitan. Untuk kesenangan diri sendiri.

Being forgotten by Noel

The day we first broke up.
I don't know what goodbye was.
Only after a few days have passed.
Not getting a call from you felt so awkward.
The empty text message inbox, a day without you.

Were we ever in love?
The images of you in the many places.
At some point are being forgotten.
The fact that you'll be even more forgotten as time goes by.
That hurts even more, it just doesn't feel good.

I guess it's really over now.
It finally feels real.
Everything that we used to love is now being erased.
The times when we were always together.
The days i was happy by looking at you.
The night i looked for you, asking you to come back.
Saying that i missed you.
Hiding and crying all night, all of that.
And the fact that we're getting farther apart.
That hurts more for me.

As i was organizing things one by one.
I suddenly thought of this.
There were so many things i am sorry for.
I wasn't good enough so i couldn't express myself.
I know you were disappointed with me back then.

I guess it's really over now.
It finally feels real.
Everything that we used to love is now being erased.
The times when we were always together.
The days i was happy by looking at you.
The night i looked for you, asking you to come back.
Saying that i missed you.
Hiding and crying all night, all of that.
And the fact that we're getting farther apart.
That hurts more for me.

On a day when it really hurt a lot, i really missed you.
I was so young, i hated you so much.
So i hoped you would suffer too.
I hoped you would hurt without me too.

Your phone number that's still clearly in my head.
The way you talked that always changed.
Your body that was so warm.
All the things that i miss are being forgotten.
That is what hurts.

This song. Yes this song. Sangat sesuai. Tapi jangan hanya lihat pada sudut percintaan antara sepasang kekasih sahaja. Lihatlah jua dari sudut yang lain. Pasti ada yang faham. Perasaan saya ketika ini. Kalau lah ada.

With Love,

-yean-

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